Jenelle Evans almost died on a bathroom floor.
That’s when she knew something had to change.
The “Teen Mom” star recently spoke about her heroin addiction and brush with death in an interview with Us Weekly.
According to E! News, Evans details her fall into addiction in her new memoir. From her first experience with heroin, she quickly became an addict, shooting up four to five times every day.
As her drug use got worse, Evans says she began to lose her friends and family. According to E!, she wrote in her memoir:
The first thing I lost to the drug was my family. I disowned my mother and siblings and friends, but the truth is no one wants to talk to you when they suspect you’re a junkie.
After her mother cut her off from spending time with son Jace, Evans fell even deeper into addiction. She added:
It hurt my heart, made me sick to my soul that I couldn’t see my son. I filled that hateful void with more drugs. The drugs always made the pain go away. They didn’t turn on me or betray me. I guess heroin was my first steady, dependable lover. It gave me what I needed to live and I gave it my life. By this entry, heroin was the only thing I had in my life that loved me.
Then came the day when heroin almost killed her. It was 2012, and Evans was dating Keiffer Delp when she overdosed at the home of Delp’s mother. She regained consciousness on the bathroom floor, but couldn’t remember anything.
According to Radar Online, Evans asked Delp why she was on the floor and got a response that was chilling. In her memoir, Evans recounts asking why Delp didn’t take her to the hospital, only to be told that her close call was one of those things that, “just happens.” She wrote:
He meant that it was just a thing that happened on heroin. Sometimes you just blackout. Sometimes you lie around on the bathroom floor while your boyfriend enjoys his high… Sometimes you go down and you don’t get back up.
Though Evans has a tumultuous relationship with her mother, in her darkest moment, her first instinct was to reach out to her mom. She told Us Weekly:
“I called her and begged her to please come help.”
The incident was a wake-up call to the young mother, who now has three children — eight-year-old Jace, three-year-old Kaiser, and six-month-old Ensley.
As she told Us Weekly, it was frightening to realize how close she’d come to making her son an orphan:
“I was appalled — I couldn’t believe that happened. I really was so close to dying.”
Evans was so shaken by her close call that she quit heroin completely that day. She recalled for Us Weekly the pain of going through withdrawal at her mom’s house:
“I quit cold turkey. I just went to my mom’s house and rode it out. I started to go through withdrawals for the first time. I didn’t know it would be like the worst flu I’ve ever had for seven days. First, you have insomnia, then you can’t eat, then you have panic attacks, then hot and cold sweats for a week, uncontrollable shaking and your joints hurt.”
Though she realizes her method of getting off of heroin can be dangerous, Evans told Us Weekly she was fortunate:
“You can die from trying to withdraw on your own. I luckily did it safely. But I said to myself, ‘I’m done. I can’t ever go through this again.'”
Evans said it was difficult to talk about her heroin addiction in public. Though she discusses the incident in her new book, Evans told Us Weekly that she struggled with denial and fear when it came to admitting her drug use:
“I was afraid to speak out and tell people that I was on drugs. People were accusing me of it, but I just thought, ‘Oh, they don’t know me. I have it figured out.’ I was in denial.”
Fortunately, those days are behind her, and Evans is planning a bright future.
The 25-year-old is planning her wedding to David Eason and told Us Weekly her partying days are in the past:
“I watched myself really running with a bad crowd. Now I’m settled down in my house, I don’t go out partying. I’m not a bad kid anymore.”
Though Evans could have kept the story of her overdose a secret, seeing the devastation caused by the opioid epidemic encouraged her to share it. As she told Us Weekly:
“I want to bring attention to how severe the heroin epidemic is. It’s horrible. It is like a disease and needs to be treated like it.”