Twenty-one-year-old Emma Fairbairn from Pembrokeshire, Wales, was scheduled to deliver her first baby, Flynn, this upcoming September.

Sadly, on May 25, Emma was a victim of a car crash that altered the course of her life.

Posted by Emma Fairbairn on Monday, May 29, 2017

Emma spoke to Dearly about the events.

She was 23 weeks and five days pregnant the night of the accident. Emma recalled the night:

“I was driving back from the college to meet a friend for lunch when a man pulled out of a side lane in my path. He was going across onto the other side of the road and when he first came into my view he was behind the line so I didn’t think at all he would just pull out.”

Emma told Wales Online what she remembered about the accident:

“I just remember the impact. Both vehicles ended up facing the opposite way around.

I just remember my body feeling like it was on fire. I tried to take my seatbelt off but I couldn’t move. I was in shock.”

According to a GoFundMe page set up by Emma’s friend Jasmine McGinley,:

Emma felt her baby kicking away in the ambulance and after waiting for a bed and having a physical examination she finally got to hear his heart beat.

The scan showed his heart beat has returned to normal and he looked completely fine.

She thought everything was okay.

Would like to announce the birth of my beautiful little boy, Flynn Fairbairn? born asleep on 28/5/17 at 11.27pm weighing a tiny 1lb6oz? I love you so so much my precious little boy?

Posted by Emma Fairbairn on Monday, May 29, 2017

But it wasn’t.

Later that night, doctors had trouble finding the baby’s heartbeat, so they sent her in for a scan. Emma told Wales Online:

“The screen was facing me and they were scanning for ages. Usually you see a little heartbeat but they couldn’t see anything.”

There was no heartbeat.

Emma told Dearly:

“It was surreal because I kept on hoping they had got it wrong. I was in so much pain anyway from the crash.”

Three days later Emma gave birth to baby Flynn weighing a tiny 1lbs 6oz. He was stillborn.

Aw little man? I'm so so sorry that you got hurt in that nasty crash???

Posted by Emma Fairbairn on Tuesday, May 30, 2017

In an attempt to feel like any other mother, Emma took hundreds of photos of her and Flynn and shared them online.

Despite the fact that she’s received a lot of support from friends, family, and even strangers who’ve suffered a similar tragedy, Emma said that:

“I’m still in a bit of a dark place and feel like I’ll never be happy or anything again but it just really is a case of taking it one day at a time.”

She told Wales Online that it hasn’t yet hit her that she won’t be having a baby later this year:

“I still think I’m going to have a baby in September. A part of me doesn’t want to have any children again – I just want him.”

But Emma is grateful she was able to spend several unforgettable moments with him.

She said:

“I can’t even explain what it was like giving birth to him. I was happy that I got to spend time with him.”

Although Emma has reached her goal on the GoFundMe page, McGinley beseeches people to continue donating.

Emma told Dearly that she has plans to fundraise and donate to the antenatal ward at the hospital once she recovers.

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