Singer Kelly Clarkson’s weight has fluctuated since she won “American Idol.”

This was Clarkson at the “American Idol” finale in 2002:

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This was her following the release of her second album in 2005:

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And this is her today, a happily married mom of two with a career that doesn’t show any signs of slowing down:

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Because Clarkson is heavier now than she was back in her early 20s, her social media is spattered with fans commenting on how unhappy she must be.

But as Clarkson revealed in an interview with Attitude magazine, it’s actually quite the opposite:

“When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself. I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life. But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense.

It was a very dark time for me. I thought the only way out was quitting. I like wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time.”

Clarkson said that it was during the release of her third studio album, “My December,” that she realized things needed to change:

“There’s a song on My December called ‘Sober.’ There’s this line ‘picked the weeds but kept the flowers,’ and I just live my life by that because you are who you surround yourself with.

I was around some really negative people, and I got out of it because I had a lot of great people there too. It was a case of turning around, facing them and walking toward the light.”

She voiced her love of how she feels now as a retaliation against online trolls who said:

You’re fat.

Clarkson tweeted back saying:

And still f***ing awesome.

As the singer’s honesty suggests, it doesn’t matter what you look like on the outside, it’s how you feel on the inside that’s really the most important.

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