Emily Mueller’s odd maternity photo shoot grabbed tons of attention when her pictures with bees covering her unborn child were shared.
The photos, taken by photographer Kendrah Damis, featured a swarm of bees surrounding Mueller’s pregnant belly with a queen bee in her hand.
Mueller, who’s a professional beekeeper, shocked people when she included the bees in the pictures for her fourth child, as previously reported by Dearly.
Sadly, the mother in the breathtaking photos shared a devastating update, her son, Emersyn, who was six days away from his due date, was stillborn, according to Fox 8.
Mueller described her heartbreak in a Facebook post detailing the tragedy that began when she realized she hadn’t felt her baby move:
She wrote, in part:
I was so busy prepping for our upcoming event that I wasn’t paying attention to baby movement, but who truly does when you’ve been this far along 3 times before and everything has been completely normal.
By evening I began to realize I had not felt baby move much and had contractions that felt different than any I have had before. It almost seemed like he moved upward into my body as well.
I would push on my stomach and feel him move inside me but it didn’t seem it was the type of movement I normally feel. I just told myself he was sleeping but as the time passed, I felt uneasy about it and used our doppler to find the heartbeat.
She decided to make the call to her midwife after she still felt nervous, assuming she was “just going to be that oversensitive pregnant woman that found out she’s being paranoid and nothing is wrong.”
She was sent to the office for an exam. Her youngest son, Westyn; her daughter; and her husband, Ryan, were by her side when the nurse couldn’t find her baby’s heartbeat. She wrote:
Tears streamed down my face and breathing started to become difficult. They asked for them to retrieve the Dr on call. I remember his presence, his walk, the way he grabbed the gel from the nurse’s hand, the ultrasound. Every detail of that moment is forever sketched into my mind and I cannot stop replaying it. Dr. Sutter sat on my right side looking at the screen and turned to me and said, “Your baby has passed.”
The helpless mother watched as her family broke down before her eyes:
I can’t and don’t want to explain that feeling to anyone. Turning to your husband and seeing him die inside. Seeing him completely break. Seeing your children feel and suffer your pain in front of your eyes. The pain is unbearable. The Dr. encouraged me to look at the screen and I wished I hadn’t. I wished I could remove the imagine in my mind of seeing the unbeating black, lifeless heart on the screen.
Mueller was crushed:
Our baby has died. Our baby will never come home with us. This wonderful rainbow baby we were blessed with has now become a storm in our lives. But this was much bigger, deeper, felt in a much greater way than anyone can ever understand. Believe me, I hope you never do.
After being told the tragic news, she found out more pain was still to come:
I think the most horrible thing happened next. Finding out your baby died is unfathomable. Learning you have to be induced and deliver your deceased child is way beyond that. My heart instantly ached for any woman that has told me she had a stillborn.
The family found help and hope during their tragedy through Sufficient Grace Ministries, who comforted them and were by their side after Emersyn’s death. They helped by providing them with newborn photography and made keepsake items with their son’s footprints on them.
“For one day we got to give him all of us and to do important things that mattered. My heart was able to begin healing from this.”
She closed out her emotional post writing:
Just as you do not know the path of the wind and how bones are formed in the womb of the pregnant woman, so you do not know the activity of God who makes all things. Ecclesiastes 11:5
Mueller thanked her family, friends, and all of the people throughout the country who have sent prayers for her family while they mourn Emersyn’s death.
Watch the mother discuss the maternity photos below.