Katy Ursta is a health and wellness coach, a blogger, a mom, and a cancer survivor.
As Ursta explains on her website, in 2014, shortly after becoming a mother to two boys, she was diagnosed with stage IV Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.
Jessie Spano called and wanted her excitement back and I was all like….⠀⠀No, Jessie.⠀This can’t be…
And like she explained on Facebook, there was one book that got her through the births of her children and her battle against cancer, “Love You Forever”:
The night before my boys were born, I packed this book in my overnight suitcase.
I tucked it under their blankies and their going home outfits (which both ended up being too big). It was under all the “necessary postpartum must haves” and also a bottle of chilled champagne…
And long after the family and friends went home for the night and I lay there, in my hospital bed, first with Nick and then a few years later with Dom, overwhelmed with joy and fear and gratitude and pain…
And maybe a Dixie cup of champagne.
While still in her hospital bed, Ursta “quietly read [her] sons this book,” as she cried.
The mom admits she could have been crying due to the “hormones,” “the fear,” or “the gratitude” she was feeling then, but she thinks she was crying because of “the simple thought that this tiny human, this small bundle, one day would grow and I was responsible.”
Ursta added that the thought of her son growing up caused her to pray, “God please don’t let him grow too fast….”
The night before my boys were born, I packed this book in my overnight suitcase.I tucked it under their blankies and…
A few months after her youngest son, Dom, was born, the mom of two was diagnosed with cancer and because it was stage IV, “they would need to begin treatment immediately.”
Ursta continued to write:
There wasn’t much time to process our new normal, and shortly before treatment one night, I found myself on Nick’s bed, kinda numb, tucking him in for the night, Mike holding Dom.
And again, I quietly read the book.
This time among all the words, and the pages of the story were my quiet prayers and tears…
‘God please let me be here to watch them grow up.’
Then, years later, one of Ursta’s sons picked out a book for her to read to him before bed.
He, by chance, happened to pick out, “Love You Forever,” despite it being “tucked on the bottom of the shelf, forgotten. Hidden away.”
…He took that book out with his big smile and said, ‘Mommy are you going to cry if we read this?’
How could he remember that?
I responded, ‘Always…’
And as I read the words and cried…
I prayed, ‘Thank you God for the gift of watching them grow up. Thank you for the messy moments and the hard moments. Thank you for this moment with Dom’s arms around me.’
The proud mom added that “seasons of motherhood are hard. seasons of motherhood are messy and complicated and sometimes downright exhausting… but no moment is guaranteed”:
The simple truth is…
I am here.
I get to be their mom.
I am watching them grow.
And above all…
She continued, “I get to love them forever, my babies they will always be.”