On December 17, Meghan McCain took to Instagram to talk about her later father, former Senator John McCain.

McCain passed away just four months ago on August 25 after a battle with a brain tumor known as Glioblastoma.

His youngest daughter, Meghan, took to social media to reveal that she is still grieving the loss of her beloved father:

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For some reason I cried yesterday at the realization that I’m never going to see you rush downstairs again like you always used to do in the capitol. It’s a strange thing to get upset over. You were always in a hurry and would walk down with this almost canter/hop because of your inability to bend your knee. It was always entertaining to watch and it occurred to me that you might be the only person in the world that moved down a staircase like that. I’m still waiting for you to call me on my phone, I’m still waiting to get on a flight to meet you for Christmas, I’m still waiting to be woken up from this bizarre nightmare/coma that was the last year watching what happens to a person who fights glioblastoma. I’m still waiting for a lot of things and guess I probably will be for the rest of my life… 113 days. You’re omnipresent in my life, heart and mind Dad and it still doesn’t feel real you aren’t here. I try and remind myself that the intensity of the pain of missing you is important because it is a reminder of how my love for you was so incredibly strong. That the pain I carry is the trade off I made for loving someone so purely and I wouldn’t change a thing about it, even now. I love you forever. Stay with me.

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She began by writing:

For some reason I cried yesterday at the realization that I’m never going to see you rush downstairs again like you always used to do in the capitol. It’s a strange thing to get upset over. You were always in a hurry and would walk down with this almost canter/hop because of your inability to bend your knee. It was always entertaining to watch and it occurred to me that you might be the only person in the world that moved down a staircase like that.

The 34-year-old then admitted that she still waits for her father to call her and for the moment when they’ll meet each other to celebrate Christmas.

Meghan admitted that those are just a few things she’ll be waiting for for the rest of her life. She continued:

I’m still waiting for you to call me on my phone, I’m still waiting to get on a flight to meet you for Christmas, I’m still waiting to be woken up from this bizarre nightmare/coma that was the last year watching what happens to a person who fights glioblastoma. I’m still waiting for a lot of things and guess I probably will be for the rest of my life… 113 days.

You’re omnipresent in my life, heart and mind Dad and it still doesn’t feel real you aren’t here. I try and remind myself that the intensity of the pain of missing you is important because it is a reminder of how my love for you was so incredibly strong.

According to the Huffington Post, here are a few tips on how to cope with the death of a parent:

Don’t expect to be ready for the natural order of things; you won’t be.

Never let anyone belittle this loss, make you feel guilty for grieving deeply, or hurry you through your grief. You are entitled to feel all of grief’s intricacies and all of grief’s intensity.

Grieving for a parent, like all grief, can be exhausting emotionally, physically and spiritually. Be kind to yourself.

This work of grief takes time; the process must not be hurried. And it is never entirely over.

Even as an adult, don’t be surprised by feelings of abandonment and uncertainty that you experience.

After they are gone your parents will continue to be a part of your life, just in a different sense. You will always be their son or daughter.

Grief does not end. Rather grief comes and goes. And then it comes again.

If you feel the need, seek out support from others who’ve been there, a friend who cares, or a professional who can help guide you through the work of grief.

The proud daughter concluded “that the pain I carry is the trade off I made for loving someone so purely and I wouldn’t change a thing about it, even now. I love you forever. Stay with me.”

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4 Replies to “Meghan McCain Admits on Instagram It Still Doesn’t Feel Real Knowing Her Dad’s No Longer on This Earth”

  • Anonymous 10 months ago

    Great man – lucky- loved daughter. Always – forever present.

  • Joy biehler 10 months ago

    I’m sorry you are missing your Dad. Lots of us who have lost our Dad’s have to get up everyday and go to work. We don’t have the time to be on Twitter or Instagram talking about tough life is without our Dad. Please suck it up and move on. Maybe you could volunteer at a veterans nursing home. But do it without fan fare or telling anyone. It will do you a world of good.

  • Melanie Heitz 10 months ago

    My Marine father was my hero and when he had sudden death it rocked my world like none other. I can say I know how you are feeling Meghan. We all grieve in different ways. I always say a piece of my heart went with my father that day. I would drive to work to my place of employment at a hospital and cry on the way there and compose myself and then cry on the way home. That lasted 2 years, but as the daily crying stopped it has not erased my sweet loving memories of my father and a longing to see him again even after 28 years. It comforts me to know one day I will see him again in Heaven. As you go through this raw intense pain Meghan know that you are surrounded by those that understand that pain and have experienced it and we pray for you to be comforted.

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