Mariah Carey recently announced her return to Las Vegas.
As Dearly previously reported, the best-selling female artist said writing songs and making music is one of the ways she copes with her bipolar II disorder.
Carey recently told The Guardian that her family troubles and growing up biracial may have contributed to her condition.
In the interview, the singer also spoke candidly about her alleged troubled relationship with her first ex-husband, Sony Music exec Tommy Mottola.
The 48-year-old singer acknowledged that her first marriage to her former mentor, who is 20 years her senior, was mentally and physically abusive. She said:
“It also wounded me. When you have to control your own emotions constantly and be aware of every move you make and pretty much ask permission to exist, it affects your life.”
And the singer feels the relationship and her struggle growing up biracial took a toil on her mental health.
Carey recalled a time that her friend “burst into tears” because “she had never seen a black person.” She explained:
“I had to go through so much in my childhood just to feel accepted and feel worthy of existing on Earth because I felt so different from everybody else growing up, because I was biracial, because I was so ambiguous-looking and because we didn’t have the money to escape whatever the everyday realities of life were.”
The New York native was born to an Irish-American mother, Patricia, and African-American and Afro-Venezuelan father, Alfred. Carey said:
“It was a combination of being biracial and experiencing the darker side of life. My mom experienced a lot of racism as an opera singer because she was married to a black man. Again, it’s impossible to encapsulate that in this setting.”
Carey told The Guardian that she’s been reluctant to share details about her personal life in the past, but she’s currently working on her memoirs and “all will be revealed.”