During an interview with Forbes, singer-songwriter Kelly Clarkson revealed that her estranged father passed away “months ago.”
While performing in Los Angeles during one of the stops on her Meaning of Life Tour, Clarkson broke down while singing a song she wrote called “Piece by Piece.”
According to Country Living, the song is a nod to Clarkson’s “rocky relationship” with her father and how thankful she is to her husband, manager Brandon Blackstock, for being a good dad to their two children and his two other children from a previous relationship.
When asked about that show in particular during the Forbes interview, Clarkson said:
“That song for me, personally, behind the scenes, it’s evolved mostly for me. So like from the moment I wrote it, just being pregnant with my little girl and then you know all the moments that I really did try and make it work with my father and life and just get completely let down to where… You know he passed away months ago. So that’s why.”
The mom continued:
“It’s kind of that I think you know I don’t tell everyone that but, that’s why everybody thinks I’m just a nutcase, but it’s just, it’s evolved.”
Clarkson told Forbes that it “sucks to sing” that song show after show, adding that she’s still dealing with the certain parts of her life that led her to write that song.
She told the crowd at that show in Los Angeles that she “can’t even fathom about not sticking around and caring [for her children]. I just can’t even fathom.”
The singer continued that sentiment during her interview with Forbes.
Clarkson added she’s not sure she will ever get over the type of relationship she had with her father:
“The emotional state of that song for me, just for just many different reasons, it’s like a loss on a lot of different levels. So I think it’s always when I get to that last part of the song that it really does [get emotional]. Yeah, it sucks to sing but I mean eventually it will be fine. It’ll be like Because of You.
It’s just the sense of loss that I just don’t know if I’ll ever not feel just because I’m a mom, I’m a mom of two kids that aren’t even from my womb that I still couldn’t imagine treating the way that I was. I think that was just a really hard one for me still.
She then conceded, “But I have to sing it and I get it.”