Chrissy Teigen is known for her candid personality, constantly sharing about her life with fans on Twitter.
Some of her admissions are lighthearted and downright hysterical, like when she publicly shamed a food delivery service for an untimely Jack in the Box meal, but she’s also transparent when it comes to more-serious matters.
Teigen’s shared her body insecurities, which, for a model, aren’t normally expected, as well as a slew of other issues — namely, her challenging journey during pregnancy.
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Before the birth of Teigen’s 1-year-old daughter, she was open about her struggle to conceive with musician husband John Legend, revealing she needed in vitro fertilization in order to get pregnant.
Like most parents, Teigen was thrilled when she and her husband finally welcomed a baby girl, Luna, to the world.
And in a recent interview with Cosmopolitan, she revealed that her children — both Luna and the ones she hopes to have in the near future — prompted her to take a good hard look in the mirror.
Sadly, she wasn’t thrilled about the person she began to see:
“I was, point blank, just drinking too much.”
Cosmopolitan noted that Teigen uttered those words while staring down at a table — not the body language fans expect to see from such a bubbly celebrity.
Teigen said that in her world, alcohol is always close by:
“Imagine everything we have. Everything is there, always. I don’t know how to go to an awards show and not drink.”
And she admitted that accessibility turned into a bad habit:
“I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected.
The feeling of shame and embarrassment was the worst part:
“And that feeling, there’s just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It’s not a good look for me, for John, for anybody.”
Another reason she wanted to take control was that alcohol abuse runs in her family:
“[I] can’t just have one drink.”
Additionally, she’s currently taking anti-depressants for postpartum depression and anxiety, and said that “alcohol is like the least thing that helps.”
However, she made it clear the decision was all on her own accord:
“Nobody really brought it up to me. They just assumed that it was OK because I always felt OK the next morning. I knew in my heart it wasn’t right. It makes you very short with people.
People think it’s cutesy and fun to go on these boozy brunches, but there’s more to it. I’ve never once been like, ‘I’m sure glad I had that boozy brunch!'”
Fans of the Sports Illustrated swimsuit model have been noticing that she and her family have been traveling a lot lately — jet-setting from Bali all the way to Italy.
Teigen told Cosmo that they’ve been on the go because they’re preparing to start the journey of IVF all over again:
“A lot of stuff’s about to come. We’re going to try to have a child. This is for us to try to get in the zone of ‘let’s travel, let’s be away together, let’s see our closest friends,’ and then we’re going to have to do something super hard, which is the IVF process, all over again.”
Teigen is never one to shy away from her flaws, and that quality might have just saved her from going down a very unhealthy path.