Country music superstar Carrie Underwood is opening up about the rough year she had in 2017.
Not only did the singer suffer a serious fall resulting in a broken wrist and multiple stitches in her face, but as she told “CBS Sunday Morning,” she and her husband also suffered three miscarriages.
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In a very emotional interview, Underwood admitted she has had an incredible life but also one that has recently had a lot of downs:
“Here we go. Oh, lawdy! 2017 just wasn’t how I imagined it.
I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby. We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out.
Yeah. It happens. And that was the thing, in the beginning it was like, ‘Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it.’ And got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn’t work out.”
Underwood then got pregnant in the early months of 2018.
Sadly, that pregnancy also resulted in a miscarriage. The 35-year-old mom of one continued:
“Got pregnant again, early 2018. Didn’t work out. So, at that point, it was just kind of like, ‘Okay, like, what’s the deal? What is all of this?’
And throughout the whole process, you know, I’m writing and, like, literally right after finding out that I would lose a baby, I’d have a writing session, I’d be like, ‘Let’s go. You know, I can’t just sit around thinking about this. Like, I wanna work, I wanna do this.'”
Underwood and her husband, former hockey player Mike Fisher, kept their fertility struggles under wraps until now.
She told “CBS Sunday Morning” that it was difficult for her to face the public with everything going on in her private life. However, while it was difficult to throw on a smile when she didn’t feel like smiling, Underwood said it was “therapeutic” in a way:
“Cause I would literally have these horrible things going on in my life, and then have to go smile and, like, do some interviews or, like, do a photo shoot or something, you know? So it was just kind of, like, therapeutic, I guess.
I had always been afraid to be angry. Because we are so blessed. And my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he’s the best thing in the world. And I’m like, ‘If we can never have any other kids, that’s okay, because he’s amazing.’ And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can’t. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.
And I got mad.”
Following what she thought was a fourth miscarriage, Underwood wanted so badly to give Isaiah a younger brother or sister.
She said she “prayed like never before” for the chance to have another child:
“Mike was away just for the evening, and I texted him, and I was like, ‘I don’t really want to be alone, so I’m just gonna go snuggle with Isaiah.’ And I don’t know how I didn’t wake him up, but I was just sobbing. And I was like, ‘Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid.’
And for the first time, I feel like I actually told God how I felt. And I feel, like, we’re supposed to do that.
Underwood said she broke down on a Saturday and went to see her doctor on that Monday thinking she was going to be told she had suffered another miscarriage.
Instead, Underwood and her family received the news that she was still pregnant:
“That was like a Saturday — and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great! And I was like, ‘You heard me.’ Not that He hasn’t in the past. But maybe, I don’t know, He heard me.”
As Dearly previously reported, Underwood announced her pregnancy roughly a month ago — making her second child their rainbow baby.
The singer didn’t announce her due date but revealed that she, Mike, and Isaiah are all “absolutely over the moon and excited to be adding another fish to their pond”:
“We’re just so excited and glad you guys can share this with us and be a part of it. Love you guys!”
Underwood has also previously talked about the possibility of adopting another young one into their still-growing family.