‘As Weird as It Sounds’: ‘7th Heaven’s’ Beverly Mitchell Says She’s ‘Grown a Lot’ After Miscarrying Twins

Actress Beverley Mitchell explained why she’s “grateful” for the experience of miscarriage after reflecting on “what might have been.”

The former “7th Heaven” cast member told Us Weekly she lost twins in 2018.

On Monday, she shared her story with the outlet following some introspection. She said:

“To be honest, as weird as it sounds, I’m grateful for the experience of the miscarriage because I feel like it has taught me a lot and I’ve grown a lot from it.

As much as it sucks, I feel like, for me, there was a lesson there, and I’m taking it to heart because … I always have to see that life is a journey and that there’s a reason for it.”

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This past weekend we finally got to celebrate Kenzie’s 6th birthday! It truly was a magical tea party! We had the perfect setting at the @westlakevillageinn and it couldn’t have been a more magical day! We painted tea sets from @stephenjosephgifts, goodie bags from @arlacreations ,got nails painted by @spoiledrottenevents,the flowers from @bashfulrose and that insane cake from @polkatots. A huge thanks to my dear friend Chrissy at @goodcarmastudio for taking my idea and blowing it out of the water! For more details click on link in bio! Photos by @ographr

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Mitchell, who shares Kenzie, 6, and Hutton, 4, with husband, Michael Cameron, said it was especially difficult to break the news to her little ones. She recalled:

“Prior to me miscarrying, Hutton was so excited, and he was just like, ‘You better take care of those babies!'”

The actress admitted:

“That a bit broke my heart because I felt like for a minute after the miscarriage that I failed him.”

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When you are straight up done. Hopefully today’s drama will be fixed tomorrow but not going to lie a little frustrated right about now! Ps for all you imposters posing as someone else, get a life and stop screwing with peoples lives! Spend your time focusing on yourself and you might have a life! Ugh! Rant over! #frustrated #tomorrowwillbebetter #itbetterbe

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Mitchell and her husband eventually told Hutton and Kenzie the babies “weren’t ready … [and] went away.”

As part of the grieving process she wrote on her blog and Instagram back in March:

If I didn’t miscarry, I would have a baby, possibly two babies joining our family. Though I understand in my heart that this was not our path, I can’t help but wonder.

She continued:

I so strongly feel there is another little soul waiting to join our family, and that is where I struggle.

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I find myself yearning for those babies I see everywhere, and my heart hurts.  And this week I let it hurt. I gave myself a week to feel it all, the sadness, the exhaustion, the pure frustration.

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The past week I have found myself reflecting on what might have been. You see, if I didn't miscarry, I would have a baby, possibly two babies joining our family. Though I understand in my heart that this was not our path, I can't help but wonder. Through this process, I have come to terms with it and have been ok; I talk about it often just because I don't want to hide the fact that it happened, I had a miscarriage.  I am not looking for sympathy just the acknowledgment that it happened, because what hurts the most is the dismissal of it.  But this week has thrown me a curveball, and I have been downright SAD.  I've been struggling, I'm physically fine but my heart hurts, and my mind is tired.  My husband is a saint and has been so kind and supportive; he lets me feel what I need to but is there to pick up the pieces and just hold me.  I look at our two beautiful and I am so incredibly grateful but in my heart I know we are not complete, I so strongly feel there is another little soul waiting to join our family, and that is where I struggle.
I am aware this week will pass, so will the sadness, but that is not to say that this week hasn't had its challenges. The hardest part was allowing myself to feel SAD and be ok with NOT BEING O.  Because as it has before, this will pass and life will go on. Life will unfold in the magic that it is if I just let it.  I just have to keep the faith and trust that time will heal.  I have always been real with you all, and you may have noticed a shift in my energy this past week on social media. I don't ever want to be the one to pretend and to hide behind a perfect life (ps there is no such thing), and I think the gift of social media is the love and support, the sense of community. So I wanted to share my truth with you all and thank you for giving me a platform, for being honest and real.
Everyone grieves differently and what has thrown me off is I honestly felt that I had gotten through that process, but it snuck up on me. I find myself yearning for those babies I see everywhere, and my heart hurts.  And this week I let it hurt. I gave myself a week to feel it all, the sadness, the exhaustion, the pure frustration.

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The country music singer told the outlet she’s still open to more children but only “if it’s in the cards”  for her family.

And if it’s not, Mitchell said she’s content with her “two little angels.” She’s not going to stress about it.