Actress Jessica Biel and her loving husband Justin Timberlake welcomed son Silas Randall in April 2015 — but not everything went smoothly for the celebrity mom.
The 36-year-old said that she planned to have a natural birth and made preparations for the baby to be delivered in their Hollywood Hills home, according to Us Weekly.
Biel wrote about her birth plan in celebrity nanny Connie Simpson's book, “The Nanny Connie Way: Secrets to Mastering the First Four Months of Parenthood”:
We had two midwives, one doula, one meditation birthing class, a ton of hippie baby books, and a lovely home in the Hollywood Hills that we had turned into a labor training facility that we called The Octagon. So, not exactly normal.
But despite all their preparation, something went wrong during the labor.
Biel was taken the hospital for an emergency c-section when she was unable to give birth naturally. She told Entertainment Tonight:
“That was a very transformative experience, because I had such a plan. I thought, this was going to happen and this is the way it shall be, and everything happened the opposite way and it was a great lesson in knowing in the future...”
She admitted that not having a natural birth was difficult to accept at first because she felt like a failure.
The mom said:
“And I'm just in awe of women who have a natural birth and if I have the opportunity to try it again or do it again, it will be amazing. And, if not, I don’t have that feeling anymore. I don’t have that intense drive that it will make me more of a woman or more of a mother or I failed because I felt as if I failed him, because my body didn’t work the way it was supposed to work.”
The actress said that she thought it was important to open up about her struggles because women often experience “shame and guilt wrapped around motherhood and birth.”
Regardless, Biel and Timberlake now have a happy and healthy 3-year-old boy.
They plan to have more children in the future, and Biel said she'll give another shot at having a natural birth.